14 Jun Loving your past
This month’s newsletter comes from Scotland where I’ve spent the past two weeks with my mum and sister. Mum had a stroke a few weeks ago and, coming on top of dementia, she is now unable to take care of herself. She has lost most of her capacity to understand and communicate.
I flew to Scotland with a heavy heart. Today my heart is light. What brought about the change?
For most of my life, I’ve looked upon my childhood as a time of struggle. As a family we had little money, I felt less than, and what I remember most of all is feeling cold. The truth is – my heart was cold.
These past two weeks, I’ve seen the beauty of the land of my birth and my childhood. The sun has shone, I’ve enjoyed buttercups and daisies, babbling brooks, the baa-ing of lambs… I’ve enjoyed family time and impromptu BBQ’s in the back garden. I’ve enjoyed walks in the park and along the canal-side. I’ve felt the joy of holding a new baby, the newest addition to our family.
I’ve sat with my mum, often in silence, holding her hand, seeing not her physical body, but the beauty of her soul.
What a wonderful childhood I had – it was rich in so many ways.
Learning to appreciate our value starts with looking at our past – accepting, appreciating, loving how it was an essential part of our journey, how it has brought us to where we are today. If you have anything in your story that blocks you from moving forward, I’ll be happy to work in-depth with you. Contact me and we’ll set up a time to have a chat.